In the meantime...

I am really unhappy at my current job. Not just the run of the mill this-job-sucks type unhappiness. I’m talking about, can’t get out of bed, don’t want to deal with the crappy new boss, try to find anything other than actual work to do during the day, carry home my crappy attitude unhappiness. It is really dragging me down. My stomach starts gurgling and flipping on my way to work every day because I just can’t stand the thought of having to explain for the millionth time to my extremely dense boss why the special projects I work on cause the reports to look off. It is just infuriating that I constantly have him over my shoulder questioning everything I do. I have been doing this for 4 years now. I know what the hell I am doing.

In light of all that, I have decided to pursue a few other job opportunities within my current company. I really thought I could stick it out and make it work in my current position until I could quit for nursing school but it is not looking very likely. I honestly cannot take another year and a half of this. These new opportunities have their good and bad sides. I *think* either one of them would be more enjoyable than what I am doing now. I really enjoy a challenge and I am pretty sure both will offer just that. They will most definitely get me away from all the bullshit that goes on where I am now. The crappy manager, the equally unhappy, pissy co-workers, the micro-management of it all. It will probably be more money. This will really help us get things paid off faster, and really help pay for my schooling (and books, geez). The best one of all? NO ON CALL!! I can’t tell you how much I hate being on call. Actually, I can. I CAN’T FREAKIN’ STAND IT!! The downsides are that it is far from home. Right now I work about 5 miles from my house. I get to go and see my girls at lunch every day, I am home by 4:30 at the latest. No more seeing the girls at lunch, no more getting home at a reasonable time. I really feel bad about accepting a new position in the company, and having people count on me to be around for the long haul then leave them high and dry in a year.

I have submitted my resume to one position already. There are a few people I have worked with over the years that are putting in a good word for me. I feel semi confident that I would be a good candidate for it. The other one, I am still debating if I want to apply or not. It would get me out of here so I should, but I’m hesitant. I think I will just have to bite the bullet and do it. Anything is better than where I am now.

Wish me luck! Although this is ultimately not what I want to do with the rest of my life, I look at it as a stepping stone in the right direction (not getting fired or quitting leaving me unable to continue my schooling.)

Oh, and did I mention that I have to inform my maniac boss that I am applying for these positions. I am worried how that is going to go over…