No letter yet. I waited and waited and stalked the mailman all day on Saturday and there was nothing but bills there. I hope it comes today. I can't stand this waiting. I need to know if I am in or not.
I'm freaking out a little and I think it is finally starting to show. I'm short with my kids and husband, I always seem to be grumpy these days, I feel like I have lost my focus, I have no motivation to do anything, and worst of all, I am breaking out like a teenager hitting puberty.
My college only accepts 30 students into The Program for the Spring semester. There are 15 people that I know of that have higher scores than me. That doesn't include the other 100's of applicants that I don't know their scores. Who know's how many are really ahead of me.
I have no idea what will happen if I don't make it in. It will be a huge crushing blow to my ego that's for sure. I finally heard from work and they have found someone so my nice work at home job will end on Friday and along with that, so will the paychecks.
At this point I suppose the only thing I can do is wait and keep my fingers crossed hoping that I didn't rush into this and quit my nice paying corporate job for nothing. I can't help but worry that I did though.
Remember back in high school? Back when all the “popular girls” were the envy of all the other girls in the school? When you secretly paid attention to what they wore and only wished you could look as cool as them?
Ok, maybe it was just me??
I have noticed during my last year taking pre-reqs for my program that whenever someone walks in wearing scrubs, all the heads turn in their direction. I can just see them thinking to themselves “OMG, look at her. She’s wearing scrubs. Wonder if she works at a hospital? In a Dr office? How lucky is she?” Everyone gathers around her and quizzes this donner of the Sacred Scrubs, on just exactly why she is wearing them and then sits back and daydreams about the day when they get to be Just.Like.Her.
I’m still here. (Thanks for checking on me Marianne) :) I’ve just be in sort of a limbo state. My CNA class is over and I don’t take my state exam until October 12th. My application for NS is in so there is nothing left to do but wait (albeit impatiently). I am in my second week of my Micro class and I am really enjoying it. I am still employed part time at my old job even though I haven’t heard anything from my boss in over 3 weeks. (Not that I mind the paychecks). I heard from a co-worker that my replacement started on Tuesday but I have heard nothing from my boss. (again, I will keep accepting the check until I hear otherwise). Aside from the big Halloween party I am planning, life has been pretty uneventful these past few weeks.
I have also been feeling a bit down and haven’t been able to shake it. Maybe I need to get back to blogging regularly to help my mood?
HIPAA - I follow it. Nothing I say should be considered absolute fact. I will take the liberty to embellish and change details as necessary to protect the guilty and innocent alike. If you think I am talking about you or someone you know, get over yourself because you are not that important. For all you know I am some insane person in a basement with a healthcare fetish wearing a skin suit and rambling on about lotion and baskets.