Saturday, July 25, 2009

Is that sweat or are you just happy to see me?

I am an introvert. BIG time. I worry that this will really bite me in the ass when it comes to nursing. I get anxious when I am in big groups, to the point that I start sweating and can’t get any words out. It really is a sad thing to see. All too often I am labeled a “bitch” simply because I tend to keep to myself more than hang out with the crowd.

The internet is a wonderful thing. I have found my niche so to speak. It is easy to “talk” to people from the other side of a computer screen. I don’t have to worry about speaking before thinking. I can type something and retype it a million times before hitting “post”. I don’t end up a sweaty mess having a conversation with someone over an internet connection. I can teach and share my knowledge and offer up some friendly advice all day long with an online buddy I have never met before, but get me in front of someone, face to face, and I freeze.

I REALLY want to be successful in nursing though. I know this will force me to come out of my comfort zone. I really need to work on this before I get into The Program or I fear I will lose control and might even have a panic attack at the most inappropriate time. I need to learn how to handle crowds, and attention, and step out from behind my self-imposed wall.

No one is going to want a big sweaty anxious nurse.

2 comments:

  1. There are all kinds of nurses-introverted, extroverted, really loud, really quiet--we need the balance in this profession. Have confidence in yourself and who you are--you have a lot to contribute just as you are! :)

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  2. We definitely sound alike! Good luck to you on your journey.

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